Photography, one of the most expensive and addictive drugs there is
Nov 29, 2016
Matt Corkum
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Photography is dangerous. Just editing a photo and getting ok results is enough to get you hooked.
Then you get an entry-level DSLR. And a cheap 50mm lens and play with depth of field. And you need a tripod. And an extra battery. And memory cards. And a zoom lens. And a remote. And a flash.
Then you try a friend’s mid-level camera. Then you get a mid-level camera. And now you think what’s really holding you back are your lenses. You start looking at good glass and realize there is no sense investing in lenses that don’t work on full frame cameras, just in case you make the jump.
Your files are bigger so you need a new computer with an SSD, lots of RAM and several external drives. You look into RAID arrays. You move up to a 27″ monitor with wide colour gamut. You need an Adobe CC subscription. And you experiment with other apps. You buy some LR presets. You need a website so you pay for SmugMug. You need to develop a backup strategy so you buy more drives and backup software. You subscribe to Backblaze. You toy with setting up a 12-bay NAS. You realize you could work faster with a pen tablet, so you buy a small Wacom. Weeks later you look into a medium or large one. You debate getting a Cintiq.
You are now an expert in bags and own several. A fun, casual bag for a camera and two lenses. A classic Domke F-2 for working out of. A big roller case for big jobs and flights. A backpack for hiking and other trips. A messenger bag for your basic kit plus your laptop. A tripod case. A case for your LED lights. A case for your background kit. A metal case for audio gear. A bag for your extension cords. Soft bags for your accessories. You’re an expert on straps. You’ve tried a dozen. Now you only use Peak Design Slide straps.
You are a regular on classified sites and Facebook groups. The amount of selling and trading you’ve done is depressing. At least twice a year you think of dumping your whole kit to move to another system. Your insane friend sold his VW Golf to move to Leica. You thought he was crazy. Now you don’t even know anymore.
Everything is out of control. After trying various stupid attachments, you’ve now got MagMods on your flashes, and you get all the attachments and gel colours. You have wallets and little cases for your batteries and cards. You have a mountain of rechargeable AA and AAA batteries and have tried all the brands and now you’ll only use the black Eneloops. You have six chargers for those and four for your camera batteries.
And now… you realize your big DSLR is a bit heavy, especially for personal and family work. So you look at mirrorless systems. You fall in love. You buy one.
Now you have three prime lenses for it, all new cards and batteries and chargers and cables and grips and straps and bags. You have two completely different camera systems. You buy Pocket Wizards because the other system you have is proprietary.
You think about buying studio strobes. Another rabbit hole. You buy a GoPro and smartphone accessories and other experimental stuff. You start researching drones.
You’re now in for $25k. Maybe 30.
And you’re never happy because you notice a bit of noise at high ISO or when pulling up the shadows. You lust after rumours of a new camera with a better sensor. It comes out and you’re disappointed.
You hang out at a friend’s studio and play with his Hasselblad. Medium format. Your eyes go glossy. You shake your head and snap out of it. Maybe someday.
You spend much of your life editing and deciding what to shoot next. You experiment with landscape, headshots, family shoots, wedding, babies, maternity, fashion, still life, HDR, pets, cars, and more. Each time you need more gear and you need to learn new skills and editing techniques. You get prints, make books, and print on canvas. You talk to other photographers about how different it is to see your work in print. You think about a gallery show.
For a brief period, you put away all your digital gear, buy a rangefinder film camera and a few primes, stock up on film, and shoot only film. You build a darkroom in your bathroom. You study all the greats. You do street photography. You scan your images in and start looking at better scanners. Finally, you realize the cost is ridiculously insane and you fall back in love with your digital cameras.
It comes to the point where you don’t want to take your camera to family functions or other events because you just want to experience it and have fun and not always be shooting. You are both obsessed with it and don’t want to do it at the same time.
You get a great shot and you fully realize it in the edit. It’s the best thing you’ve done this year. You are so excited. You share it out. People love it. You get that buzz. You’re pumped. You realize you’ve put in this time and money and it’s been worth it because you can shoot consistently and you have a great portfolio and you have a stack of family photo books and all these great memories captured.
Then you notice a bit of noise in a shadow area you pulled up. And you start thinking about your next camera and lens…
Afterword
Since it was originally published, my post seems to have spoken to lots of fellow photographers. Photography often starts as a hobby and quickly gets out of hand. It can be expensive, but of course it doesn’t have to be. If people are happy with their kit, that is awesome; sometimes I am happy, too. But I also love staying on top of technology and seeing what’s next.
For all my purchasing, I’ve tried to be mostly level-headed about it, attempting only to buy gear that I know can help me create better images or work faster. I do a lot of research and testing, and only buy when I know it will fill a void.
Of course, I think some folks believe gear will magically make their photos better. It won’t. However, once you ramp up your skills and techniques, and gain experience, gear can make your photos better because you are able to leverage the benefits of that new gear.
My “journey” has been over 12 years, and every piece of equipment has been paid for by my photography. It has changed from a hobby into a lucrative part-time career. I don’t mind being called a gearhead, but I’m not a collector: all of my gear is put to good use!
About the Author
Matt Corkum is a wedding and portrait photographer based out of Halifax, NS, Canada. You can find out more about Matt on his website, and follow his adventures on Instagram. This article was also published here, and used with permission.

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15 responses to “Photography, one of the most expensive and addictive drugs there is”
Yes, yes and yes! I’m at the mirrorless camera stage, to replace my DSLR. I hope to stop there until I can make photography a decent side gig :)
I was thinking about this today. :) Awesome article!
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Trying being into Drifting (motorsport). It costs me £6-700 a weekend in tyres alone. Then theres entry fees, fuel, any damaged body parts etc. etc. Then there’s the winter rebuilds…………….lol
Tim Hasl
sounds too familiar :)
Love how much Peak Design gear they have on the picture ?
My first photo instructor described what were about to get into: Everyone put $ in the bag going around the room. Instructor opens window and tosses out the bag.
What a great way to get people to follow your IG. ?
The wife and I were laughing hysterically reading this. So true…so true.
If you thing photography GAS is bad you have not heard of modular synthesis. Eurorack is the worst drug.
Is there somewhat scientific explanation about, why this even happen?
Yes!
It’s all about self esteem and the fact, that we as species are naturally searching for correlations.
It all starts in childhood: We feel bad, and we see, that ‘that other kid’ has a new toy and he gets attention because of it and he/she seems to be happy. We see correlation, that to have attention and be happy – we also need a toy. Now, after getting the toy too, we get self esteem boost, that wears off, after some time and we are searching for another toy, to get it back.
Now, when we are in teenage years: We are already internalized this idea, that we need ‘stuff’ that other people have, to feel like other people look. And it works, to some extent. We start to see advertisements, like: “look at these happy, good looking, popular peers. Want to be like them – buy ‘X’ thing”. We get the ‘X’ thing, get a quick self esteem boost and don’t realize, that basing self esteem from external things is only temporary.
When we grow up more – this is where the phrase “sex sells” comes from: Advertisers start to show commercials like: “look at this charismatic guy who is around a lot attractive of women. He drinks ‘X’ beer.”, or “Look, at this attractive women, who have a romantic dinner with rich, powerful man. She uses ‘X’ perfume”.
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anyways, what does this have to do with photography and GAS?
The same thing, as always.
We just want to feel good about ourselves. A lot of articles about GAS write how we think, that good gear will makes us better photographers(what is somewhat true), but it does not describe why.
It is still about pacing that self esteem hole with external ‘stuff’, that we backwards rationalize as “we want to be better photographers” in articles about GAS.
An “entry level dslr” Nikon D3200
1 battery grip with dual EN-L14a’s and 1 spare
3 Sandisk SD class 10 cards 2-16gig 1-32gig
2 zooms Nikon 18-55 3.5-5.6 VR, 55-200mmVR
3 Speedlights Youngnuo 560-III and the 560 TX
1 Speedlight Youngnuo 468-II TTL with its transmitter Receiver
1 manfrotto travel tripod pistol grip
6 Neewer lightstands
1 cowboy studio 9′ boom stand/arm
4 Fotga speedlight adapters
1 Wescott triple threat
2 Photoflex 7 foot umbrellas
2 Paul C buff umbrella diffusers for the 7 footers
1 Photoflex 60″ convertible
1 DIY difuser for the 60″
2 umbrella softboxes with diffuser and grid 24×36
1 umbrella octabox with diffuser and grid 30″
1 Neewer umbrella octabox 47″ with diffuser
2 33″ umbrella shoot through
1 background kit with 2 stands, 12ft crossbar 2 muslims( black and white) 10′ x24′
DIY Gels, bounce adapters
FAAAARRR waaaaaayyyyyy FARRRR from 25k worth of equipment … have been paying my bills, vacations, taxes and rent and food for the past 5 years with it. Out of control maybe a little but ALL of the above is not even close to a single PRO body.
Don’t get caught up in the “pro level” DSLR wave. If you have the talent and motivation to go out and make a living of photography…. PRO level equipment is over rated. A nice entry level DSLR with a Nice Premium Glass will more than suffice those “strict high quality clients” that we all pant for… they would not even notice… Push your work through lightroom and photoshop and that is it.
I remember when the digital revolution started and everyone was saying how cheap it will be, you would only need your camera and a couple of memory cards, OMG its cost me a bloody fortune with an ever increasing arsenal of gear from lenses to lights, I wish I could go back to the start and give those people a slap on the face with my leather glove lmao :-)
There have always been gear-whores. Also, there are still photographers who get along only with their camera. Hell, there are people who take good pictures only with their smartphone.
Well, I started out with a smartphone in 2013. Then I bought a used Fuji XE1 in November 2014 with the XC 16-55mm. I added a few M42 lenses and the Zeiss 32mm which I never use. Tried a few film cameras but developing is to expensive.
Got my brothers old gaming PC and Lightroom.
My cheap neewer tripod and flash broke.
I will replace these and then let’s see.
Big portable flashes and lightning equipment sound interesting. Maybe a long lens. Maybe a film Mediumformat camera. An a7s.
But then I want a new car….